I currently live across the bay from San Francisco and on occasion I take BART (Bay Area Rapid Transit) home after work.  I say on occasion because I try to take it as infrequent as possible because its a freaky ride.  The freakishness has nothing to do with the people or the fact that the BART system has been in service since the Nixon administration without any upgrades.  The freakishness comes form the speed in which the train travels as it is going through the tunnel that crosses the bay underwater.  Its so fast that the whole train just shakes like a Korean weight lost machine from side to side, jiggle, jiggle.  The windows are rattling, the floor is vibrating and the doors are shaking so bad that it just may fling open at any time.  You pass by the light fixtures inside the tunnel like if they where rays of light.  As I am absorbing all this input of motion, sound, and light I am on my tippy toes just barley holding on with the tips of my fingers to the rail above my head, and as I am holding to dear life as all the commotion is going on simontaneously I start to feel like if I am traveling through time through a sort of black hold or super nova time portal.  Now this is the freaky part…  where are we going to stop??  When the BART doors open are we going to be at the West Oakland station or are we going to be back in time in the dinosaur era?  Most of the time I think that we will have to survive among the dinosaurs and I start to scope the passengers.  Whom among us will step up to be our fearless leader?  The guy over two rows with the black leather briefcase looks like a successful businessman, but wait the one seating beside the lady in red looks like a bully are we going to be in a dictatorship?  Then I look around for day to day survival needs and whom among us in this extremely packed metal earth worm could provide the services.  Do we have a doctor or nurse an herbologist perhaps?  How about an inventor, a physicist, is anyone the really MacGyver anyone?? What skills does the moder day human have to service in a world with no electricity, no running water, no structured society.  I kinda start thinking about Gilligan’s Island, if not for the professor they would have all died.  Modern day humans in America are for the most part not skilled for survival.  We do not know what to eat it it is not packaged and FDA approved.  Among the hundreds of mushrooms which are comestible and which are poisonous?  Does the average American know what to use to disinfect a cut without alcohol or peroxide most likely not.
As a child I once heard that the down fall of the human race was going to be the human ingenuity and perhaps this is what they meant.  The down fall is perhaps that people are so dependant on modernity that we are ill equip to survive in a primitive environment.  An environment that could erect once again due to war, natural disaster, a pandemic flu, or our own ingenuity…nuclear waste.

Who would you be on the train and what would you contribute to our survival?

As some of you know I am a Human Resources Manager and regardless of the amount of firing and unpleasant tasks that I need to perform on a daily bases I really love my job, but it’s things like this that really piss me off and make me say why do I bother working with people…I should have been a vet.  Sorry if I am not acting very professional at this moment by bringing aspects of my profession into my personal blog, but you will understand when you read the following excerpt of and email I received today.

“Many thanks again for the job offer with CompanyXYZ.  I have spent many hours and a few sleepless nights thinking about this amazing opportunity.  When we had initially spoke early last week, I was under the impression that my unemployment benefits were coming to end, which was perfect timing to join CompanyXYZ. On Monday afternoon, I received notification that they are now extended for another 33-53 weeks by the kindness of Governor Schwarzenegger and the Federal Stimulus Package.  In re-looking at the numbers every which way (taking into account taxes, nanny costs, parking, etc.), I’m actually saving $147 more a month on unemployment than working, and because of this, it’s very hard to justify accepting the offer.”

For as much as I talk…I am speechless.  “I’m actually saving $147 more a month on unemployment than working”…what the hell you blood sucking leech.  You have the opportunity to work to be a productive member of society and you just want to seat around and continue to milk the system, a system that is funded with our tax dollars.  All Californians are paying 1% more on everything we buy until who knows when in addition to the huge amount of taxes that we are already paying because the state is in the biggest deficit ever and this leech is just going to continue to screw every hard working Californian over because they are saving $147 a month…woohoo.  I hope this person can look at any Californian in the eyes and tell them “thanks California for your hard work, I just got this designer bag with the stimulus package”.  I hope this lazy ass can find better karma for less then $1,764.  I could easily offer this person the $147 take home more a month and perhaps a bit more, but this email told me way more then any reference I could have ever called.   This person has no pride, no integrity, no dignity, and I sure as hell am not going to hire someone this unethical and just pain stupid.   “by the kindness of Governor Schwarzenegger and the Federal Stimulus Package” I am so upset that I am writing to our legislature and tell them to stop being “so kind” that they are not helping by creating more lazy ass leeches like this one.  There has to me a better way to pay out those that really do need it and not leeches like this lazy ass.

Where are your tax dollars going?

As a young adult I was very opinionated and always had something to say…crazy theories I would call them.  My brother Sergio would just ask me “do you know that for a fact or are you talking out of your ass”.  Most times I was talking out of my ass, but my ass was always very logical and most times it was right.  But out side my family nucleus most people would just say that I was a complainer or to angry and I started to believe them so I stopped viewing the world with a critical logical eye.  URRRRRRRR but why, what the hell was I on?  You have to question life especially adults…children have it down pack, but adults…well they need some work.  It is your human given right to question and to make your own decisions and come up with your own crazy theories.  How dare I let any one tell me what to say or what to think or how I should feel.  As you read my blog you may think I am a complainer, but really I’m not I just tell things as I see them Life Accourding to Me they are just not PC.  PC is the stupidest invention created by adults.  Masking who you really are, what they really think and becoming completely disassociated with thier own freaking life is just nonsense.  PC was created for a world full of fearful adults that are just like Piglet from Winnie the Pooh, to afraid to live with the exception that Piglet concored his fears instead of creating a PC world.  The only PC I like is the one I use to write this blog.

I over heard my boyfriend Matt say this to his friend over the phone the other night and it got me thinking.  Most of us get up every morning with a dreaded alarm clock buzzing at our ear and while our bodies refuse to move our mind forces us to get up.  All just to go work for a guy we don’t even know.  We jump when he says jump, and we do all his dirty work around the office while he is who knows where…his the boss and tells no one his where abouts.  We spend just as much time working for this guy in this modern day indentured servitude then we spend time with our love ones.  Out of 168 hours in a week I use 29% for sleep, 38% with Matt canoodleing, and 33% working for this guy that probably doesn’t even remember my name.  Tell me that this doesn’t suck.

If company owners took the time to know their employees they would actually have a better workforce. They would have more loyal employees that would produce more…faster…cheaper…better.  When people know and admire their leader they keep following even if its just out of curiosity but they follow and they do not give up because they do not want to fail them.  I think of quiting every day especially at 6:30am when my alarm rings.  The only reason I don’t is because I love my boss she is the most fascinating, open-minded, business savvy women I know and I don’t want to fail her.  But as for the “guy” I would sale him to you for a shiny penny, cause I ain’t no ones bitch.

I have been living in Northern California for over two years now and I just can not pin point the Nor Cal mind set. Are they wheat-grass, tree hugging loving communes or are they really righteous egomaniacs that wear North Face jackets with crocs. If you think P.C. is going to be the downfall of America it may very well start in San Francisco. They all seem to be harmonious, go green, all inclusive, PC practitioners, but are they really? It sure does not seem to be the case at least most of the time.

The real Nor Calians will step on the gas not to let you in just to slow back down again once you get behind them. They don’t get out of their seat for the elderly or pregnant women when on BART or MUNI. I actually road the same bus for a year bus 31EXB with the same people every day Monday – Friday and none of them would return my good morning greeting. They would just look the other way or keep pretending that they are reading…who can read with that crazy ass bus driver behide the wheel.  If they are so kumbaya where in the hell are their manners.  San Francisco is bad, but the worst is in Berkley home of the free loving heepies…yeah right.  Places like Blondie’s a pizza joint on Telegraph will not sell you a whole pizza just because will “we are not selling whole pies right now”. Do you normally sell whole pies, “yes we do”. When? “all the time, just not now”…just not now…what the hell you pajama wearing freak.

No one seems to care about their fellow citizens. Yet they all protest on a weekly basis, but no one know why. If you ask me I just think they just love to stand around do nothing and get naked for any reason not to work. I have seen more naked ass on San Francisco streets then I ever saw in my high school gym showers.

Why can’t people just be themselves? I don’t care if you are an a-hole, but just don’t pretend to be something or someone your not. I use to think that people from the east coast where rude and mean, but you know what I think they are just keeping it real. What you see is what you get. No sense of entitlement, no wanting a free ride, no beating around the bush. I just may have to give them a shot who knows the east coast maybe what I have always been looking for…REAL PEOPLE.

See you in New York.

What the f@*% with all the beeping and honking in Northern California.  It’s like they have their hand on the horn like if it was a buzzard at a game show. Your in a car not on Family Feud.  Seriously its very annoying. It does not matter what the situation…beep…beep.  I’m halfway at a crosswalk and the light turns yellow…beep. I’m on a corner ready to cross…honk…honk.  I am walking to close to the edge of the sidewalk…beep…honk. Even when I’m driving and I am about to make a legal left trun…beep…beep.  What the HELL.

The cherry on top on this whole honking issue was today.  Matt and I got a flat tire on our way to Monterey at about the worst spot on I-880 S towards San Jose right pass the CA-92.  I mean worst just because there was no exits in proximity and we had to walk along the freeway with no emergency lane…just a thin white line between us and a F-550 going at 80MPH…freaking scary.  They where honking at us…what the fudge, do they think we do this for recreation. Instead of honking and beeping the mofo’s should have stopped.  I just think that all that honking and beeping is more harmful then helpful…it scares the shit out of you and it could actually cause you to jump in the way instead of getting out of the way.  I just think that Norther Californians are just paranoid egotistical freaks.

Beep…beep…honk…honk…back